My life has undergone some heavy duty shifting lately. From unsuccessfully searching for a new office job, to having to do some deep soul searching, I have been in a constant state of the unknown. I would say I have handled it rather well, I haven’t had any emotional breakdowns or anything. But if I were to tell you I haven’t had moments of doubt, fear, anxiety and frustration then I would be lying. Has it been hard to look for a job for almost two years, to no avail? Of course. Have I been discouraged into thinking I am stuck where I am at? Absolutely. But, overt the past few months, I shifted my thinking. I stopped thinking about what would make me successful in terms of the world (ie. Money, a big-girl job, keeping up with the Joneses etc) and I focused on what would make me happy. What would be satisfying and fulfilling to me. After lots of talking with my husband and praying about what I should do, it became very clear to me that I needed a change. And a drastic one at that.
As you all know, I am currently pursuing my Bachelors degree in Business Administration and Law and am set to graduate in the Spring. But with the ending of that chapter, the next obvious thing to ask is, “What are you going to do next?”. While I definitely plan to use my degree eventually, right now I feel as if an office position is not what I need at this point in time. And so, instead of staying where I was, I decided to quit my job.
I know what you are thinking, “she has no idea what she is getting herself in to.”. But, the truth is I know exactly what I am getting myself into. I know that I was extremely unhappy at my day job to the point that I would lay in bed until the last minute to go to work. I know that if you go to work unhappy every day, it seeps into your life outside of work and emotionally drains you. I know that living in a state of security is not always the best thing for you, because opportunities present themselves and sometimes you have to take a risk to get the pay out. I also know that if you aren’t truly happy at your job, it doesn’t matter how much money you make, you are still going to be miserable. And that is one thing I do not want to be.
And so, the look for a replacement job continued, only this time I thought long and hard about what I would actually enjoy doing as my job. I love children and I have contemplated various occupations involving children before (teacher and daycare owner), so it quickly became obvious to me that I would love to nanny. Without hesitation, I created a Care.com account, set up my availability and began applying for every local job that I could and that seemed to be good fit for me. I had a few people reach out to me and one promising interview, but in the end my lack of experience caused me to miss out on that job. I was a little bummed at first, but as I got to thinking more about it, I realized it was not the best fit for me and I was okay with that. ( she didn’t like the idea of people having kids and bringing them to her house, so that may not have worked out when my husband and I decided to start a family). Over the next few weeks, I did not hear much from any jobs I applied to, and the ones I did hear from were all part-time or needed someone to start immediately. Considering I was still working my office job, I knew I needed to give a full two-weeks’ notice before I left, so those were just not doable.
One night, I had applied for a couple of the new postings and within an hour, I received a text message stating the woman from the posting would like my number for her husband to call me for an interview. I emailed him my number and the next day he called me. The rest is history I guess, the phone interview went as well as possible and the phone conversation ended with an agreement to meet the gentleman’s daughter the following week. The week after that, I was basically offered the job (the mother never said you are hired, but her conversations alluded to the fact that I would start in September) and I gave my twoweeks’ notice at work. This was a little scary since I didn’t have a definite answer ( and we hadn’t discussed pay yet) , but at the time I think I had just made up my mind that if I kept waiting to give my notice, I would never go through with it. I also just felt that even if this position fell through for some reason, I would still benefit from giving my notice since I could start immediately for future prospects.
It definitely was not easy for me to leave somewhere that I had been for the last four years, but for a while now I have known that it was time to move on. My supervisor made the transition easy for me and that helped ease my mind as well. One of my biggest reasons that I don’t make more bold moves for myself, is that I am always worried I will hurt someone or put them in some kind of inconvenient bind. I never want to feel like I have let someone down and I certainly don’t want to be the reason someone has to endure some type of hardship. I prayed a lot. Honestly, I think that because I decided to really press in for God’s guidance and provision, I was able to see the positive result that I did. And He gave me peace when I needed it most, so that was definitely a big deal for me during this whole transition.
And so, here I am….three weeks later and I can honestly say I haven’t felt this confident and at peace about my work situation in a long time. Three and a half years to be exact.
I am supposed to start my nanny job as soon as I get back from visiting my friend in Nevada (that blog post in in progress now and will be up in about ten days when I leave) and I am so excited for what the future holds. The family seems like a perfect fit. It is a military family where I will be taking care of an 18 month old little boy named Joey (who is an absolute little heartthrob!) and I will also be helping with his new baby brother who is just a little over a month old. The mother is going to be home with me, so I do feel some relief that I will not be going into this alone in the unfortunate chance that there would ever be an emergency. A lot of people have asked why she needs me if she is a stay at home mom, but she best explained it this way. Her option was to put the toddler in day care, but she wanted to still spend time with him through the day so she said she would rather hire an in-home helper if she was going to be paying for anyone to watch him. It really came down to attention and the fact that she doesn’t want her son to feel like she doesn’t have time for him, but it is just not possible to give him the attention he demands when she is constantly having to nurse and care for the newborn. I will also be helping with errands and housework so technically Iam her nanny and personal assistant 😊
After spending some trial runs with the family and speaking with the parents more, I can honestly say that this job is exactly what I needed and I couldn’t ask for a better family to start this journey with. One of the biggest things that I wanted assurance about was when I start a family, will I be able to still work the nanny job and would it be okay to have my baby/babies with me? This job literally told me that they thought starting a family was awesome and that I wouldn’t have to worry about that affecting my employment. I can even bring my children with me when I have them. To me, that is so important and just another reason that I feel secure in my decision to take this job. The second hesitation was of course the financial aspect. I basically accepted the job before they ever disclosed the pay, which I found out later was a miscommunication between the daughter and her father. The issue was quickly resolved and when they didn’t hesitate to meet my current salary in the office position, it was just another confirmation that they were truly going to take care of me and value me.
I am not sure how long this job will last, but going from conversations with the family , it should last several years. Of course things can always change due to unforeseen circumstances, but if nothing else, this gives me some great experience to put on my resume going forward. I really couldn’t ask for anything more at this point, so I will just leave it at that.
For those of you who made it to the end of this long and overdue post, thank you for sharing in my journey with me !
Peace and Blessings!